So pissed of...

Feeling alone in the four corners of your room
You saw your friends' pictures of having fun without you
You're so devastated,
You can't even move a finger,
Why is it happening all over again?
You know that you gave everything
But why? It seems that its not enough
Why?...why?

I feel the wounds are opening up once again
I don't want to feel the pain once again
Why is it happening all over again?
Did I do something wrong this time?
Tell me...
Tell me, what did I do to deserve this?

I did everything...
All the efforts that were wasted...
I don't know what to do anymore
Do you think I don't deserve to be happy?
Why? Give me a reason to believe it

Why can't I be happy?
Happiness is all I ask for...
But I never really got the chance to it
I feel so deprived
Feeling so restless as the seconds passed by
I feel the clock saying tick' tock'

Is it sympathizing with me
Or is it mocking me that time passes by so fast
Or just wanting me to realize that I really should move on...
Move on with my life...
Without looking back

I just want to feel important for once
Even just a moment
Or just a day...
Is there someone willing to let me experience it?
I'm just hoping it against all odds...

Can someone help me...
Help me to fight this emotions that I'm feeling right now...
I feel so weak,
So restless that I don't even have the courage to cry...
Maybe crying helps others to relieve theirselves
But why can't I even cry?
Cry, even just a tear in my eyes...

I want to cry but there are no tears coming out from my eyes
Is my eyes are tired from crying once again?
Does it feel that I don't wanna cry again over some matters?
I think my body is immune to all kinds of pain...
My body is tired from everything...

I really hope someday, I will get over this feelings once again
I want to move forward without having excess baggage
Without feeling this kind of emotions...
I want to move forward...

I know it will take a while again
To bring back piece by piece of my shattered self...
I want to live at the moment...
Without worries...
Without regrets...