SeEkInG tWiLiGhT...

Bakit ganun?
Lagi ko na lang nararamdaman ito...
Lagi ako nawawala...
Yung bang nag-iisa ka lang sa isang madilim na lugar
Hindi mo makita ang daan palabas...
Tumakbo ako ng tumakbo
pero humahantong pa rin ako sa pinagmulan ko...
Parang nauupos na kandila na napaupo na lang ako
at hindi ko na namamalayang lumuluha na pala ako...
Bakit ganun lagi ang nararamdaman ko?
I feel lost and empty inside...
May kulang na hindi ko mawari...
Can somebody tell me what is it?

Everytime na ginagawa ko ang lahat ng kagustuhan nila,
I feel numb...
Why?
I just want them to be happy kaso bakit hindi ako masaya?
Am I just too numb not to feel any emotions?
Well, I guess going with the flow will not getting me any better...
I want something new in my life...
Hindi yung laging ganito na napakaboring na parang naka-schedule na lahat ng dapat mong gawin...
Napaka-predictable at monotonous naman ng buhay ko...
But I can't help it to feel the emptiness inside me...

Kaibigan ko siya pero hindi ko napigilang mahalin
siya ng higit pa sa pagkakaibigan...
Ano ba dapat kong gawin?
Kahit nakikita ko siyang nakangiti at tumatawa,
Alam kong hindi iyon ang totoong nararamdaman niya...
How can I help her to ease the pain written in her eyes
when she doesn't want to open her door to anyone except herself?

Mahal ko siya kaso hindi niya alam
Ang hirap niyang abutin
Siya langit...
Ako lupa...
Ang layo ng agwat namin...
Simple lang naman kasi ang gusto ko eh...
Ang mapansin niya ako...
At malaman niya na nage-exist ako...

WILL I EVER SEE THE WAY TO HAPPINESS?

gEtTiNg StArTeD...

This is my 2nd blog here. The first one is all about my daily thoughts and what's happening to me so, I decided to make a 2nd blog wherein I can express my thoughts and moods through a story. I love writing stories and poems, and doing some art because that's the way I can express myself and I think this is where I can express all of it wherein there's nobody who can criticize me so bad and besides I can hide my identity here hahaha...

Anyway, I just want to have a diversion from all the chaos in my life. I can't trust people too much anymore. I learnt my lesson...